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It's Prayer and Fasting again, as I remind myself to write for my faithgoals for 2015 before the year ends, I was amazed on how God moved, answered, and blessed my prayers for 2014. There were blessing that wasn't part of my faithgoals for 2014 and Im thankful for all those things.

For this year, I have summarized my faithgoals in three things: 

1. To know God more and to dwell to his presence
2. To spend more time in my family and bless them
3. To  grow as a person in areas on my finances, career, spirituality, and character. 

With other faithgoals, I leave it to God. 

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The perfect father to me.....

In my previous post about my tatay, I mentioned that after 22 years of existing, I can only remember him when father's day is coming. I am getting used to it, living without his presence but I am still hopeful that one day, we're gonna meet. And that one day happened. 

Far from the expectation that I can still hear his voice saying my name, that I can still feel his embrace, I saw him for the first time, and for the last time; on his coffin. 

Last Sunday, November 3, Before the afternoon sunday service ended, my mom texted me to go home as early as I can to go with her in Laguna. While travelling home, my tears kept falling as if I knew what she's gonna tell me.  "Diba gusto mo sya makita?" she asked me that question after I ate dinner. (I cant just stop from crying because somehow, I can sense she's about to tell me something about my dad.) And when she said he died, all I want to do that moment was to rush in Laguna so I can see him. My body was shaking. I couldn't think of anything except of going to Laguna that night. I texted few close friends about what happened. I grabbed my bible, prayed. And read the word of God. Above anyone else who wants to give me comfort that time, I know, It's Him. 

Nothing is as heartbreaking as knowing that the only time I could see my dad, was on his burial.  It makes me feel hopeless. There will be no more chance of hugging him, eating dinner, saying I love him. And what breaks my heart more is that, he couldn't call me "anak". He didn't had a chance to see me, for 23 years. 

I wouldn't blame anyone about what happened. I wouldn't blame my mom that she didn't let me see tatay while he's still living. I wouldn't blame tatay that he didn't look for me. God allows these things for a good reason. And for whatever reason it may be, I know sooner, God will reveal it. I would not look for any father-image, Because God, my father, has been perfect father to our family. Providing for all our needs. Protecting us, Loving us unconditionally. 

And another thing, while mourning, I couldn't help not to be amazed how God words came true. Last February, when I celebrated my 22nd Birthday, God promised that this year, I'll be seeing  my dad. This has been the word of God to me since then. 

 The Lord answered, “I can do anything! Watch and you’ll see my words come true.” Numbers 11:23

Praise the Faithful Lord! Who's always true to His Promises. 

Related post about Tatay:

Dear Dad

Which Part of the movie made me cry 

If my life will be in movie

Waiting is always painful

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Beauty or Peanuts

Life is like a Baguio. 

It's filled with beautiful hills and zigzag roads, horsetails and boat rides, pine trees and fresh air- but we tend to focus on the rancid bag of problems and  be disgusted with life in general. 

Always remember: Experience is not what happens to you. Experience is what you do after what happens to you. 

Your life is not about events. Your life is about the interpretation you give to those events. And you have the power to pace whatever interpretation to that event. 

How?

By the power of focus. 

Disclaimer: This is an excerpt from Bo Sanchez' book, Take Charge, Give All 

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Prayer and Fasting 2012

 Faith Goals are a goal set in hope and based on things unseen. It is setting a goal that is measurable and based on spiritual power. That is, the power to create and imagine what is not yet seen or made manifest. (c) ThinkBlade

In our Church, we are encourage to write our faith goals in the end of the year. Faith goals are written prayer of the things we believe God will give us for the whole year. Faith Goals can be short or long term. 

Short Term Faith Goals are what we believe God will give us within the year, 

Long Term Faith Goals are what we are believe God will give us that will take time.

It may sound greedy, but it is not. That’s why is is called “faith goals” In the bible it defines what faith is “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see”. (Hebrews 11:1). 

Writing a faithgoals doesn’t mean we ask for all material things we want to receive from God. My faith goals also includes financial, emotional, physical, spiritual aspects. 

I am excited for the annual Prayer and Fasting of our church, but to be honest I haven't written my faith goals for this year yet. Last night, I got my diary and check my faith goals for last year. Grateful me! GOD is really faithful, most of my faith goals that I have been praying are now an answered prayer. Some of my faith goals that are not answered yet will be included in this year's faith goal. To summarize my faith goals for this year, I will include:

• Family Relationship Restoration
• Work Promotion/Salary increase
• God's will for leaving the country
• Noel's family unity and prosperity
• Physical Fitness
• Mentally less stress
• Excellence in Ministry
• Relationship

I am faithful that God will not just  give  me this but He will also provide the things I need. Morethan anything, I'll do fasting not because I am too desperate with my faith goals, in my one week of fasting, it would be a good opportunity to encounter God with weakening my physical body and strengthening my spiritual body. I also believe for God's revelation for this week of fasting. 

Matthew 5:18

New International Version (NIV)

¹⁸ For truly I tell you, until heaven and earth disappear, not the smallest letter, not the least stroke of a pen, will by any means disappear from the Law until everything is accomplished.

Verse to hold on this year

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